Sorelles: fuck it

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Okay I better say this now before my computer gets packed up-

Its an odd feeling when u leave ure whole world behind. Ive never been good at actually admitting to myself that im sad- but saying goodbye has left a dull pain in my chest a lump in my throat- and even if I havent cried, tears behind my eyes

I remember this feeling and I know it goes away but even after i consider Luxembourg my home and am surrounded by new people Ill remember u guys-

Mrs. Jackets said this is wat lifes about- u just have to accept it- u will find more people u feel this way about and then in turn ull have to leave them- but ull have a connection with them through all the memories uve shared- and theyll be in ure heart forever

And I knoe that’s all true- but it dosnt make saying goodbye any easier- I want more than anything to take u all with me- to see u grow up- to share more memories, ure highs ure lows as I have for the best part of four years- u all made me so happy- made me love life- made me love every minute ive spent with my friends- and I wouldn’t exchange it for anything-

And I wont forget- ill never forget- uve all made sure that I have such vivid memories even if I wanted to forget I couldn’t

Ill remember playing thumb war with izzat on his first day- and holding his hand when I needed something extra to cling to- some how that little bit of comfort made things slightly better- no matter what was upsetting me

Ill remember shaf upset on valantines day- and having me in hysterics during the drama exam

Ill remember Jonah doing hand stands at the ICC when we should have been watching king and I- and gossiping in math when we should have been revising

ill remember playing Uno with amir in grade 6- and him playing the prince in cinders

ill remember amiel studying in my room- and ill remember him being a fucker

Ill remember kennys face on his birthday when Charlie gave him the playboy t-shirt- and running up huge fone bills talking all night

Ill remember play fighting with Robert by the river when I was supposed to be playing netball- and sitting on his knee crying when my dad was in hospital

Ill remember rorys john Lennon impression and walking with him on the beach

Ill remember tais first day when she scared the shyt outa me lou and jo cos she said she wanted to be eaten by sharks- and on prom night when I wanted to hit and hug her at the same time

Ill remember ummi tripping learning to walk in high heals- and giving such an amazing drama performance

Ill remember shooting Brian with a staple gun and him keeping me warm on prom night

Ill remember dom smashing my plant pot- chasing burt around the house- him playing with my hair in math- and singing under the bridge in grade 9 art

Ill remember braiding hannahs hair in the mornings – and her always being there for me

Ill remember Nadine wheeling away from Miss ranson cos she hadnt handed her corsework in- and her making us all laugh

Ill remember dying with liam at the last swim carnival after the IM and swearing to eachother that we were giving up swimming once and for all- oh and him eating the salt-

Ill remember mat jumping up and down when he told me- sitting by the river with him- and him crying on the last day

I remember anthoney looking lost on his first day- and slowly becoming ‘anthoney’ rather than ‘the new guy’

Ill remember Nyan being insainly happy- and me whishing to one day be as happy as him

Ill remember jess panicking over the exams and 5 minutes later going hyper- then 5 minutes later panicking over the exams- and five minutes later going hyper

Ill remember dan being happy and dan being sad- and loving dan no matter what mood he was in

Ill remember loving spending time with toby- and him being imbarased when me and naz gave him his birthday cake at the pta

Ill remember Jo’s tarten pants- and being happy to get out of bed at 5.30 just because it ment I could hang out with her before school

Ill remember lou at swim carnivals waiting with food for me at the finish line- and knowing that short of one of us dying I will definetly see her again

Ill remember Nazs pretty face, her singing sugar sugar with ali- staying up all night looking at the moon- loving the new friendship and hating saying goodbye

And I dont realy have any memories with Charlie which stick out- when I think about it- it’s a blur of red, then brown hair- sleepy eyes and cheeky smiles- highs and lows and how i love her so much it scares me-

I love u all – and ill miss u all- and please feel more than welcome to turn up on my doorstep whenever-

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Thank u for everything

Hana
Xoxo

Posted by Sorelles @ 9:26 pm