download big city life by mattafix- its very english i know =) but it just kinda sums it all up for me rite now xoxoxo btw welldone at football funday =) u all looked so professional in the pictures

Big City Life, try hard to get by
Here my heart has no base

Take a moment to relax
Before you do anything rash...

Don't you wanna know me?
Be a friend of mine
I'll share some wisdom with you
Don't you ever get lonely?
From time to time?
Don't let the system get you down

I find myself in Big City prison,
I find it hard to depart this Big City Life
my heart has no base

Don't let the system get you down-
Don't let the system get you down...

=) good luck everyone playing at jis - i know ure gonna kick ass- im just wondering... whos charlie gonna suport lol xoxox

i love her lol

hey (: havn't blogged in months and seeing as my hotmails down i decided to blog.

first off, thanks for the present hana :D it got here yesterday. i love it, it's so fucking cute!! i love you (:

i was planning on posting heaps of photos, but i just realized i don't have many.. haha my digicam's kinda dieing on me.

yeah.. i've already lost motivation to blog so i shall leave you with what photos i have.

mwah!
charlie .x

BLURRY

Everythings so blurry and everyones so fake
Everybodys empty and everything is so messed up
I cant bide without you I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you stumble then I crawl

And you can be my someone, you can be my seed
And know that I'll protect you for all of thee obscene
I wonder what your doing
Imagine where you are
Theres oceans in between us, but thats not very far

Explain your game to me
Explain your game to me

its amazing wat a difference chatting with old friends for 6 hours makes- thanks u guys x

Okay firstly I'd like to say a HUGE congradulations to - p i n k w e d n e s d a y - for winning the BATTLE OF THE BANDS.(; And especially to Nikki for winning best vocalist.
Life is kinda shit right now so not much to say. Only good thing about today was catching up with an old leprechaun of mine :D hehe.<3 Hana I miss you woman! So fucking much. But don't worry seriously, just ride it out coz that's life and life. is. a. bitch. It's bound to happen wherever you go, obviously some places will have less of it but some are bound to have more. In the long run it's good for you I guess, making you stronger person. You can do it, you're a LOVING Bruneian leprechaun.(; hehe. x
Anyways, am doing the blog mainly coz your tagboard refused to let me post a msg of my wonderful love so yea haha. I MISS YOU and love you even more so, sweeeeeeeeetie. take care. RIDE THINGS OUT. And maybe learn some self-defence so big scary stoned black men will get their asses kicked the next time they approach you. Love you, (:
Jessssssssss. x
btw..Thanks for helping me put things into respect, I needed it. Can always count on you to listen & I love you for it. mwah!

; God we look so sexxehh in this picture :D hehe.

; more seximaliciousness, mmmmm! tchee tchee haha.

.singing songs that made you slit your wrists
it isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun.

okay first of all i need to say a huge happy birthday too charlie...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLIE

lol i dont reali need to go on about how special u are do i? =) u all ready knoe that ure my favouriteist person in the world- that i love u so much it scares me- that id give 5 inches off my hair to have spent today with u- no wait... 6 inches- i love u so much- i miss u more every day- and i can not wait to see u again soon- have an awesome year babe- hope ure present dosnt take too long to get there- brabuddies for life xoxox

its hard to believe its only just a year ago that me and charlie had our party- it seems like a fucking life time ago- especily today- ever since i had a week off, living in luxembourg got harder- i dont know if uve ever been new- but you go through stages- the first few weeks u are having a good time- then it hits u- ure never going back- and thats when things start to get reali reali difficult. it hit me over the holiday- i finaly had time to sleep- like reali sleep- like 11 hours a nite sleep- and i started dreeming- reali vivid dreams about brunei- staring u guys- and it hurt so much to wake up and not be in my old room- not to go sit at the benches with jo- and going back to school this week kinda made me realize im here for good-its not just a holiday-

luxembourg is alright- there are busses and shops and clubs and there is freedom- i do things that would be impossibe in brunei- and its reali good that i can face all the problems of the western world while living at home- i meen i could hardly stay in brunei forever could i- ive learnt how to deal with things like panty hose- and dishwashes- and mud- boots and duffel coats and huge black guys who corner u on busses- and meen ice cream sales men- and traffic lights- and homeless people- and bounces- and drug pushes- the red light district (lol or the red light street in luxembourgs case) and wost of all....when theres so much on tv u dont knoe wat to watch- its good that i dont have to face these things alone when im 18- but still i wanna come home so badly it hurts- and i know its good for me to be here but i wanna go home so badly....

i finaly got my internet back- ive been on all the sites and u all look so well- lol all of izzats pictures made me smile- and then cry =) i can reply all ure e-mails now ive got my net back- i doubt im gonna get much time 4 hwk this weekend- ive got so may people i owe mail too- thank u all so much for keeping in touch btw-=)

alrite =) i had better go before i start moaning again- the thing im trying to say to u guys is stay in brunei as long as u can and tresure each moment- =) it may be limiting but there is no place like it in the world- IT IS UNIQUE- it has its problems yes... but like anthoey says its full of good people, it has year round sun and chickin rice- lol and well thats all u reali need to be happy rite?
love u all- counting down the days till im bak oh yeh and happy hari raya =)

oxoxo

me kate and karri

me and kate lol

me and christina

kate

christina and karri