Sunday, November 13, 2005
okay first of all i need to say a huge happy birthday too charlie...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLIE
lol i dont reali need to go on about how special u are do i? =) u all ready knoe that ure my favouriteist person in the world- that i love u so much it scares me- that id give 5 inches off my hair to have spent today with u- no wait... 6 inches- i love u so much- i miss u more every day- and i can not wait to see u again soon- have an awesome year babe- hope ure present dosnt take too long to get there- brabuddies for life xoxox
its hard to believe its only just a year ago that me and charlie had our party- it seems like a fucking life time ago- especily today- ever since i had a week off, living in luxembourg got harder- i dont know if uve ever been new- but you go through stages- the first few weeks u are having a good time- then it hits u- ure never going back- and thats when things start to get reali reali difficult. it hit me over the holiday- i finaly had time to sleep- like reali sleep- like 11 hours a nite sleep- and i started dreeming- reali vivid dreams about brunei- staring u guys- and it hurt so much to wake up and not be in my old room- not to go sit at the benches with jo- and going back to school this week kinda made me realize im here for good-its not just a holiday-
luxembourg is alright- there are busses and shops and clubs and there is freedom- i do things that would be impossibe in brunei- and its reali good that i can face all the problems of the western world while living at home- i meen i could hardly stay in brunei forever could i- ive learnt how to deal with things like panty hose- and dishwashes- and mud- boots and duffel coats and huge black guys who corner u on busses- and meen ice cream sales men- and traffic lights- and homeless people- and bounces- and drug pushes- the red light district (lol or the red light street in luxembourgs case) and wost of all....when theres so much on tv u dont knoe wat to watch- its good that i dont have to face these things alone when im 18- but still i wanna come home so badly it hurts- and i know its good for me to be here but i wanna go home so badly....
i finaly got my internet back- ive been on all the sites and u all look so well- lol all of izzats pictures made me smile- and then cry =) i can reply all ure e-mails now ive got my net back- i doubt im gonna get much time 4 hwk this weekend- ive got so may people i owe mail too- thank u all so much for keeping in touch btw-=)
alrite =) i had better go before i start moaning again- the thing im trying to say to u guys is stay in brunei as long as u can and tresure each moment- =) it may be limiting but there is no place like it in the world- IT IS UNIQUE- it has its problems yes... but like anthoey says its full of good people, it has year round sun and chickin rice- lol and well thats all u reali need to be happy rite?
love u all- counting down the days till im bak oh yeh and happy hari raya =)
oxoxo
Posted by Sorelles @ 7:20 am