Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Monday, December 26, 2005
Okay time for a very very over due blog- =S im quite ashamed of how long its been since I properly updated- I have so much to say I dun know where to start- so this mite be abit random- but bare with me =)
starting with the obvious...
MERRY CHRISTMAS- may you all have the awesome year u deserve- and i hope to see you all before too long- thank u for ure xmas messages- love and miss u all lots and lots xoxo
I had a reali good Christmas- I was woken by my brother at 9-fucking-30 - =( SO PAINFULL – so I staggered downstairs to open-
I got some reali good stuff - a hair curler- a dressing gown – chocolate and loads of lil things- and best of all- the first season of that 70's show from my brother
then I did wat any self-respecting teenager would do- I staggered bak to bed for 3 hours more sleep- then we went 4 the traditional Pearce christmas trudge through the Forest then to Merlis 4 a proper xmas dinner cos my mum couldnt face cooking- the meal was amazing- I ate SO much- and then I fell asleep in front of some crappy sci-fi thing that joe and merlis brothers were watching- then i came home and attempted packing-
There was an unusual heat wave in Luxembourg today- 7 degrees! I was walking through the woods without my coat- =) but then we went to Merlis in Belgium- and I swear- the minute u cross the border and it drops 5 degres-
it sounds weird but it was so nice to be in the car- Im not driven anywhere here- and when were looking 4 our car in the car park i honestly dun know which one is ours- I reali miss driving cos I spent so much time in the car in brunei whereas here I get almost everywhere by bus taxi or I walk- so I reali enjoyed the drive to Belgium- another thing I reali noticed on the way bak was the stars- in Belgium there was a typical Brunei sky… u knoe... with the basics like stars and moons?? But in Lux we live so close to the city I can only see a hand full of stars if im lucky- and half the time they turn out to be planes- I dunnoe- its weird all the lil things that are different here-
I went to church last nite for the first time since I lived in England - me and my mum went to the midnight service- and it was reali nice- id forgotten what a big part of my life church was when I was small- id pray 4 times a day- 3 times in school and once b4 bed – and I was in church at least once a month- but when I moved to Brunei it just kinda stopped- it wasnt that I stopped believing- well- its not like I ever truly believed- it was just something that u did as a kid-
it was so familiar- the prayers, the songs, going to the alter to be blessed- just as I did when I was small- and it was interesting as well to consider how much my experiences in Brunei have changed my outlook on religion- how my time in Brunei has shown me another way of living- and its an outlook thats as important to me as all the teachings of the church of England-
Im going bak to England tomoro- were driving too france, getting the overnight ferry to Hull- then driving west to visit two of the many places I call home- Barrow in Furness and darlington-
Barrow is this old shipping town where my dad grew up- and my gawd that place has its quirks- its rite opposite the Nuclear power plant Sellafield- which is probably responsible for the high rates of cancer in the north of england =S – I remember being small trying to play in the freezing cold sea and seeing frothing green industrial waste floating by- but I guess thats my heritage- =) were visiting my granddaddy – which is always fun for as long as I can keep convocation going- but its the first time im visiting since my grandma died- and im kinda scared its gonna be weird without her there-
then Darlington- an old mining town where my mums from - but again its the first time im going bak since my aunt died- so thats gonna be kinda weird-
but all in all im reali looking fwd to going bak- and were going by boat =) and u know what that means??? PHILIPINO SAILORS- lol- id kill to hear someone speaking tagalong rite now- so maybe ill go find some sailors lol- just to hear the accents- and talk too someone from the east- oh and to ask if they have any indo-mee- =)
So what have I been doing since I last blogged?? Well ummm… a lot lol- the last few weeks of school were crazy- they didnt fricking give up teaching us - i was at school till Wednesday- I mean what is that?? White ppl are so fucking crazy- I mean u would get any self-respecting asian working till the fucking 21st- u just wouldnt- and those teaches kept us working till the end- I was so exhausted- the past few weeks were a blur of movies swimming clubbing and hwk- its fricking fun- but I just need some time to breath u know? And I cant see that happening till the summer- in Brunei you have so much time on our hands- I mean we were home by 3.30 most days and we didnt have to do stuff like bring the washing in or post our own parcels- here stuff like that eats up ure entire day- I have so much hwk this holiday- but of cause I was celebrating the end of school these past few days and im off to England tomoro and I only have afew days once I get bak- so I dunnoe what im gonna do- but hopefully itll work itself out
It was my daddys birthday a coupple of days ago- ill post the pictures when I can- I think he had an alrite birthday but we didnt go out and celebrate- just cos we didnt frickig have time with all the preparing 4 xmas-
OH... and I didnt write about my scary nite =S – it freeked the shyt outa me- I went out to the movies with Irina acoupple of weeks ago and we saw the exorcism of Emily Rose- which by the way u shouldnt go see- its the scariest movie since white noise- the movie let out so late there wernt any busses so we got a taxi into town and then went to this club- but then I realized id left my fone in the taxi- this was at aroung 2am- so I was like okay- I should probably go home cos I dun wanna be out any later without a mobile- so I left everyone thinking I could just get a taxi outside the club- but no taxis- so I had to walk to the center of town- BY MYSELF!!!!- past the parks- which is where all the drug dealers go- and I had no fone- and I was still freaked out by the movie... – but I made it town in one piece- but there were no taxis- and no busses and the only ppl around were homless people- so I was like oh crap- im stuck- no taxi no fone- no help- ill have to walk home by myself- so I set off- but then MY SAVIOUR- a taxi came and I made it home =) anyways the bottom line of my story is ive lost my fone- so if I dun reply ure messages dun take it personally =) ill send my new number out as soon as my fones replaced- which hopefully will be soon- im kinda dying without it-
Ive had a reali good time these past few days- I met lodsa ppl who came bak from uni 4 xmas- and they took too me to all these bars id not been to yet- some reali awesome places- that ill defiantly go too- I cant fucking wait till they come bak nxt holiday-
I guess seen as though this is my last blog of 2005 I should probably end it with some reflection- all I can say is- ive grown so incredibly much its unbelievable-
I was in the park with joe today- and he looked up at me and said- please stop growing up- and I felt so bad 4 the kid- hes rite though- ive lost a lot of my bounce- im no longer the first one out of the house when its snowing- and I dun dance down corridors anymore- but maybe its time?-
i was reading over my blogs from last year and it kinda proves his point for better or worse i have changed - sometimes I wish I could sit down with the me from last year- id have so much too tell her- so much advice to give- ive still got no regrets though- and I wouldnt change places with anyone- theres no fucking way- ive had too much of a good time with amazing people and i wouldnt give that up 4 anything
to my Brunei ppl: ull never knoe just how much i owe to u all for letting me be so carefree and natural for so long- and no matter how much i grow this year I hope that ill be able to cling onto a lil bit of who u guys alowed me to be forever- ill explain to you what I mean one day- but the bottom line is thank you- thank you all for this year- thank you for all the support both b4 and after I moved- and thanks 4 not giving up on me when I was so terrible at keeping in touch- thank you for being all that u are and all that u made me x.
and to the Luxembourgish ppl: when I was making ure Christmas cards last week I felt for the first time since the summer that warm rush of love that u only get for people u truly care about - thank u for letting me feel that again and thank you so much for looking after me this term- one day ill be sure to do the same for u- 2006 is gonna be awesome =)- trust me
and ill end with a quote from izzat- who even though hes 3000 miles away still manages to sum it all up for me - This year has been great to me but its time to seal that chapter and hope for 2006, the better.
may 2006 bring u all the happiness u deserve and may all ure Christmas wishes come true
Merry Christmas and happy New Year
Love forever
hana
xoxo
starting with the obvious...
MERRY CHRISTMAS- may you all have the awesome year u deserve- and i hope to see you all before too long- thank u for ure xmas messages- love and miss u all lots and lots xoxo
I had a reali good Christmas- I was woken by my brother at 9-fucking-30 - =( SO PAINFULL – so I staggered downstairs to open-
I got some reali good stuff - a hair curler- a dressing gown – chocolate and loads of lil things- and best of all- the first season of that 70's show from my brother
then I did wat any self-respecting teenager would do- I staggered bak to bed for 3 hours more sleep- then we went 4 the traditional Pearce christmas trudge through the Forest then to Merlis 4 a proper xmas dinner cos my mum couldnt face cooking- the meal was amazing- I ate SO much- and then I fell asleep in front of some crappy sci-fi thing that joe and merlis brothers were watching- then i came home and attempted packing-
There was an unusual heat wave in Luxembourg today- 7 degrees! I was walking through the woods without my coat- =) but then we went to Merlis in Belgium- and I swear- the minute u cross the border and it drops 5 degres-
it sounds weird but it was so nice to be in the car- Im not driven anywhere here- and when were looking 4 our car in the car park i honestly dun know which one is ours- I reali miss driving cos I spent so much time in the car in brunei whereas here I get almost everywhere by bus taxi or I walk- so I reali enjoyed the drive to Belgium- another thing I reali noticed on the way bak was the stars- in Belgium there was a typical Brunei sky… u knoe... with the basics like stars and moons?? But in Lux we live so close to the city I can only see a hand full of stars if im lucky- and half the time they turn out to be planes- I dunnoe- its weird all the lil things that are different here-
I went to church last nite for the first time since I lived in England - me and my mum went to the midnight service- and it was reali nice- id forgotten what a big part of my life church was when I was small- id pray 4 times a day- 3 times in school and once b4 bed – and I was in church at least once a month- but when I moved to Brunei it just kinda stopped- it wasnt that I stopped believing- well- its not like I ever truly believed- it was just something that u did as a kid-
it was so familiar- the prayers, the songs, going to the alter to be blessed- just as I did when I was small- and it was interesting as well to consider how much my experiences in Brunei have changed my outlook on religion- how my time in Brunei has shown me another way of living- and its an outlook thats as important to me as all the teachings of the church of England-
Im going bak to England tomoro- were driving too france, getting the overnight ferry to Hull- then driving west to visit two of the many places I call home- Barrow in Furness and darlington-
Barrow is this old shipping town where my dad grew up- and my gawd that place has its quirks- its rite opposite the Nuclear power plant Sellafield- which is probably responsible for the high rates of cancer in the north of england =S – I remember being small trying to play in the freezing cold sea and seeing frothing green industrial waste floating by- but I guess thats my heritage- =) were visiting my granddaddy – which is always fun for as long as I can keep convocation going- but its the first time im visiting since my grandma died- and im kinda scared its gonna be weird without her there-
then Darlington- an old mining town where my mums from - but again its the first time im going bak since my aunt died- so thats gonna be kinda weird-
but all in all im reali looking fwd to going bak- and were going by boat =) and u know what that means??? PHILIPINO SAILORS- lol- id kill to hear someone speaking tagalong rite now- so maybe ill go find some sailors lol- just to hear the accents- and talk too someone from the east- oh and to ask if they have any indo-mee- =)
So what have I been doing since I last blogged?? Well ummm… a lot lol- the last few weeks of school were crazy- they didnt fricking give up teaching us - i was at school till Wednesday- I mean what is that?? White ppl are so fucking crazy- I mean u would get any self-respecting asian working till the fucking 21st- u just wouldnt- and those teaches kept us working till the end- I was so exhausted- the past few weeks were a blur of movies swimming clubbing and hwk- its fricking fun- but I just need some time to breath u know? And I cant see that happening till the summer- in Brunei you have so much time on our hands- I mean we were home by 3.30 most days and we didnt have to do stuff like bring the washing in or post our own parcels- here stuff like that eats up ure entire day- I have so much hwk this holiday- but of cause I was celebrating the end of school these past few days and im off to England tomoro and I only have afew days once I get bak- so I dunnoe what im gonna do- but hopefully itll work itself out
It was my daddys birthday a coupple of days ago- ill post the pictures when I can- I think he had an alrite birthday but we didnt go out and celebrate- just cos we didnt frickig have time with all the preparing 4 xmas-
OH... and I didnt write about my scary nite =S – it freeked the shyt outa me- I went out to the movies with Irina acoupple of weeks ago and we saw the exorcism of Emily Rose- which by the way u shouldnt go see- its the scariest movie since white noise- the movie let out so late there wernt any busses so we got a taxi into town and then went to this club- but then I realized id left my fone in the taxi- this was at aroung 2am- so I was like okay- I should probably go home cos I dun wanna be out any later without a mobile- so I left everyone thinking I could just get a taxi outside the club- but no taxis- so I had to walk to the center of town- BY MYSELF!!!!- past the parks- which is where all the drug dealers go- and I had no fone- and I was still freaked out by the movie... – but I made it town in one piece- but there were no taxis- and no busses and the only ppl around were homless people- so I was like oh crap- im stuck- no taxi no fone- no help- ill have to walk home by myself- so I set off- but then MY SAVIOUR- a taxi came and I made it home =) anyways the bottom line of my story is ive lost my fone- so if I dun reply ure messages dun take it personally =) ill send my new number out as soon as my fones replaced- which hopefully will be soon- im kinda dying without it-
Ive had a reali good time these past few days- I met lodsa ppl who came bak from uni 4 xmas- and they took too me to all these bars id not been to yet- some reali awesome places- that ill defiantly go too- I cant fucking wait till they come bak nxt holiday-
I guess seen as though this is my last blog of 2005 I should probably end it with some reflection- all I can say is- ive grown so incredibly much its unbelievable-
I was in the park with joe today- and he looked up at me and said- please stop growing up- and I felt so bad 4 the kid- hes rite though- ive lost a lot of my bounce- im no longer the first one out of the house when its snowing- and I dun dance down corridors anymore- but maybe its time?-
i was reading over my blogs from last year and it kinda proves his point for better or worse i have changed - sometimes I wish I could sit down with the me from last year- id have so much too tell her- so much advice to give- ive still got no regrets though- and I wouldnt change places with anyone- theres no fucking way- ive had too much of a good time with amazing people and i wouldnt give that up 4 anything
to my Brunei ppl: ull never knoe just how much i owe to u all for letting me be so carefree and natural for so long- and no matter how much i grow this year I hope that ill be able to cling onto a lil bit of who u guys alowed me to be forever- ill explain to you what I mean one day- but the bottom line is thank you- thank you all for this year- thank you for all the support both b4 and after I moved- and thanks 4 not giving up on me when I was so terrible at keeping in touch- thank you for being all that u are and all that u made me x.
and to the Luxembourgish ppl: when I was making ure Christmas cards last week I felt for the first time since the summer that warm rush of love that u only get for people u truly care about - thank u for letting me feel that again and thank you so much for looking after me this term- one day ill be sure to do the same for u- 2006 is gonna be awesome =)- trust me
and ill end with a quote from izzat- who even though hes 3000 miles away still manages to sum it all up for me - This year has been great to me but its time to seal that chapter and hope for 2006, the better.
may 2006 bring u all the happiness u deserve and may all ure Christmas wishes come true
Merry Christmas and happy New Year
Love forever
hana
xoxo
Posted by Sorelles @ 9:32 AM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven
And when she gets there she knows
And she's buying a stairway to heaven
And when she gets there she knows
if the stores are closed
With a word she can get what she came for
And she's buying a stairway to heaven
There's a feeling I get when I look to the west
And my spirit is crying for leaving
And it makes me wonder
...it makes me wonder...
With a word she can get what she came for
And she's buying a stairway to heaven
There's a feeling I get when I look to the west
And my spirit is crying for leaving
And it makes me wonder
...it makes me wonder...
Posted by Sorelles @ 4:34 AM
Monday, December 12, 2005
here are the pictures we took 4 elaines- thats, claire, nimah, christine, kari, elaine, kate, lisa, me, snickers, Irina and mango =) the dogs are so cute
Posted by Sorelles @ 3:24 AM
Saturday, December 10, 2005
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me and my brother on halloween- lol like my attempt at goth?? i even dyed my hair
Posted by Sorelles @ 11:48 PM
starts just where the light exists
a feeling that you cannot miss
burns a hole through everyone that feels it
Posted by Sorelles @ 4:51 PM
Friday, December 09, 2005
so =) i wished 4 internet- i came home and within 10 minutes i was conected thank-fucking-god i was dying -
first things first i have 2 very very important birthday shoutouts which are very out of date-
MAT- my darling- happy birthday- u knoe i love u- u knoe how much i love u it would be kinda pointless me going on about it- but knoe i miss u lots and lots and lots- and i wish i could have been there 4 ure birthday- i wish i could have given u a hug- i wish i could spend this year with u.... i wish alot of things...
have an awesome year yeh? i know u will enjoy every moment of it- go out and enjoy being 17 =) this whole ib thing is so much work i know but the ppl in brunei are so awesome and unique take as much time as u can out of studying to be with them- cos ure only 17 in brunei once and ull reget it if u dont- and remember what ever happens we're always gonna have time to walk =)
Love u xoxoxo
and elaine- =) 4 those of u who dun know of elaine- shes one of my closest friends here- she was new with me and we kinda lached on 2 eachother- shes from Ohio America- and is the sweetest person in the northen hemespheare- i love her so so so much- she turned 16 the day after mat- i wish i could post a picture but i dun have one - but anyways elaine- i love u so so much- thank you for everything- i hope this year goes well- im sure it will =) love u forever and always hanaxoxoxo
and i knoe ure all dying to know how i am lol - im good =) not great- i dun think ill be great 4 a while- but im recovering from the low i hit about 3 weeks ago- im kinda in a routine which is helping me suvive- but every now and again it kinda hits me- like last nite i suddenly started thinking about dancing with my mushroom and - hearing falling away with you makes me think about liam playing the piano- nothing else matters and makes me think about charlie-
today i was listening to blue and yellow- and was web camming with dan dom and liam- and liam was in that shirt i gave him- and it was so good to see them but i cried afterwoulds- but id deffiently rather be sad thinking about u guys than forget- web camming with dan made me happier than ive been in a long time- even if i cried afterwoulds- does that make sense? ull understand when u leave- knowing that u were once so happy kinda gives u hope- and ull go though all that hurt just to remind yourself that u were once so fricking happy-
i cant believe ure all on holiday already- lol ive still got like 2 weeks- schools killing me- but its awesome been able to walk to school- cos u can just go home when ure free =) i was in bed untill 9 today- i was very nearly late 4 history but it was SO worth it =)
the first snow came last week- me and joe went out and danced in it- till it got too cold- OH I GOT STUCK IN A BLIZERD lol- =) it was elaines party- and we'd had an awesome time-i ate pasta =) and we took profesional photos which was so fun- ill scan them in when i find my scanner in the packing- anyways we got on a random bus that we thought was going in the rite direction but it wasnt- so we got off in the middle of no where-lol we were trying to discribe where we were to her dad- and all we could come up with was - theres a field... and some houses.... and a road... then it started snowing more heavily than ive ever seen- and trust me ive seen snow- so we all huddled in the bus shelter till her dad came- =) it was kinda scary at the time-
and i went to brussels 4 a swim meet- and i came- wait 4 it- last in everything- lol its a proud pearce tradition to come last at interschool meets =) but i had a reali good time apart from- i got a fricking ear infection from the pool- that pissed me off- so i couldnt swim this week-
oh and im going to england at xmas IS ANYONE GOING TO ENGLAND THIS HOLIDAY???? im kinda desperate to see someone from home-
and i think thats about it- i just hope my internet holds up 4 a while- ill e-mail nxt time im avoiding hwk =)
love and miss u all so much
hanaxoxooxox
first things first i have 2 very very important birthday shoutouts which are very out of date-
MAT- my darling- happy birthday- u knoe i love u- u knoe how much i love u it would be kinda pointless me going on about it- but knoe i miss u lots and lots and lots- and i wish i could have been there 4 ure birthday- i wish i could have given u a hug- i wish i could spend this year with u.... i wish alot of things...
have an awesome year yeh? i know u will enjoy every moment of it- go out and enjoy being 17 =) this whole ib thing is so much work i know but the ppl in brunei are so awesome and unique take as much time as u can out of studying to be with them- cos ure only 17 in brunei once and ull reget it if u dont- and remember what ever happens we're always gonna have time to walk =)
Love u xoxoxo
and elaine- =) 4 those of u who dun know of elaine- shes one of my closest friends here- she was new with me and we kinda lached on 2 eachother- shes from Ohio America- and is the sweetest person in the northen hemespheare- i love her so so so much- she turned 16 the day after mat- i wish i could post a picture but i dun have one - but anyways elaine- i love u so so much- thank you for everything- i hope this year goes well- im sure it will =) love u forever and always hanaxoxoxo
and i knoe ure all dying to know how i am lol - im good =) not great- i dun think ill be great 4 a while- but im recovering from the low i hit about 3 weeks ago- im kinda in a routine which is helping me suvive- but every now and again it kinda hits me- like last nite i suddenly started thinking about dancing with my mushroom and - hearing falling away with you makes me think about liam playing the piano- nothing else matters and makes me think about charlie-
today i was listening to blue and yellow- and was web camming with dan dom and liam- and liam was in that shirt i gave him- and it was so good to see them but i cried afterwoulds- but id deffiently rather be sad thinking about u guys than forget- web camming with dan made me happier than ive been in a long time- even if i cried afterwoulds- does that make sense? ull understand when u leave- knowing that u were once so happy kinda gives u hope- and ull go though all that hurt just to remind yourself that u were once so fricking happy-
i cant believe ure all on holiday already- lol ive still got like 2 weeks- schools killing me- but its awesome been able to walk to school- cos u can just go home when ure free =) i was in bed untill 9 today- i was very nearly late 4 history but it was SO worth it =)
the first snow came last week- me and joe went out and danced in it- till it got too cold- OH I GOT STUCK IN A BLIZERD lol- =) it was elaines party- and we'd had an awesome time-i ate pasta =) and we took profesional photos which was so fun- ill scan them in when i find my scanner in the packing- anyways we got on a random bus that we thought was going in the rite direction but it wasnt- so we got off in the middle of no where-lol we were trying to discribe where we were to her dad- and all we could come up with was - theres a field... and some houses.... and a road... then it started snowing more heavily than ive ever seen- and trust me ive seen snow- so we all huddled in the bus shelter till her dad came- =) it was kinda scary at the time-
and i went to brussels 4 a swim meet- and i came- wait 4 it- last in everything- lol its a proud pearce tradition to come last at interschool meets =) but i had a reali good time apart from- i got a fricking ear infection from the pool- that pissed me off- so i couldnt swim this week-
oh and im going to england at xmas IS ANYONE GOING TO ENGLAND THIS HOLIDAY???? im kinda desperate to see someone from home-
and i think thats about it- i just hope my internet holds up 4 a while- ill e-mail nxt time im avoiding hwk =)
love and miss u all so much
hanaxoxooxox
Posted by Sorelles @ 3:00 AM
charlie naz- i hope this gets u in the mood 4 xmas =) remember how amazed we were?? lol love u both lots and lots xoxoox
Posted by Sorelles @ 2:53 AM
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste my time with you
rather waste my time with you
Posted by Sorelles @ 2:39 AM