http://www.thehungersite.com/ go click ppl =)

I guess growing up she was a legend someone who was half dead already- I remember talking about her, my name sake, and waiting, waiting for today, when she could finally leave her limbo, finally be looked upon as a member of the past, of the now forgotten generation. Its kinda sad really.

the freedom to jump~

COME SIT WITH US
okay.. yeh so =) i went to amnesty today... and theres this pertition thing against the arms trade on the website.. its this virtual football staduim where u can create your own little person to sit and umm.. pertition against the arms trade??- anyways i think its awesome and come sit with me =) all u have to do is go too http://www.amnesty.org/ and then about half way down theres a link called world cup feavour... click on it and there should be a pop up and u chose ure language.. then if u find me click on North West corner- it should zoom in and then click on NW2 then go too row 25, and rite next to the stairs in seat NW2R25C53 is me =) lol sitting next too kate and elle =)
xoxo.

you know what i love about blogging... there are no rules =) it seems that everything i write is so regulated now- so controlled- so... unnatural... and well... its nice to just sit and write, knowing the next 1000 or so words are mine.. I can say what i want- without having to consider a mark scheme.

first of all- MUSHROOM- will u please become ure paparazzi, extreme-blogger, full on emo self-expressionist, self again- i loved it when i didnt have to do anything to get inside ure head- and now i feel like im loosing touch with u- its gotten so extreme im considering E-MAILING u to find out how u are.
and ofcause- =/ secondly, sorry lou-lou jo jess naz and the other ppl who's e-mails have been in my inbox for fucking ages- yeh.... im gonna do something about that soon for sure no worries.

So the suns out in Luxembourg- and ive rescued my short skirts from the back of my wardrobe, and broken out my flip-flops for the summer- and =) im happy. Cos you see after the winter came, i spent almost all my time inside, and when i was outside i was in pain from the cold and couldnt move because of my huge Paddington bear coat. but now- i can move again- i can wander around in sox, i can spin in my minis like a little girl - i can sit and be at peace, i can be silly and laugh- i can wander forever- i can run. Well when i have time - anyway my point is- i woke up about 10 days ago and it was may- and suddenly I was blessed with 4 more hours daylight, and basically the freedom to be outside whenever i want. lol your probably all reading this thinking what is she on =/ but when u survive your first winter- u come out the other end able to appreciate all the things you took for granted when you lived in Asia.

The weather also started me thinking- when the winter set in last year a dark cloud set over me as well, things suddenly got a lot harder, I lost a lot of the other things I also took for granted when I was in Asia- but over the past few months ive slowly got them back again- im suddenly remembering how it feels to be able to say anything you want to a close friend and know they wont judge you- how it feels when you trust a guy enough to sit on his knee or allow him to drive you home- cos you know for sure he wont demand anything in return- how it feels to be sublimely happy just sit and sleepily listen to your friends- how it feels to be truly needed by someone and know that you can depend on them =) - and well... im okay now- sure i get this sudden lump in my throat when i see a photo of jess- or when i wake up at kates and for a moment, just a moment, i think the red hair on the pillow next to me is charlies- or when i see a boy in a white baseball cap like anthoneys- but- i know now that it will be okay, ive come out of the winter, ive come out of being new, and sure ive got deep scares to prove it- and I know that was probably nothing, I will undoubtedly go thorough worse times, but =) cheesy as it sounds im stronger, pissed off with humanity and pessimistic about the state of the world sure, but stronger.

I went to see FEAR FACTORY (the people in the picture) last week lol- i went from ronan keeting to heavy, heavy metal in four steps- =/ it was the bomb- i felt so.... =) normal lol the people were the out of this world- i loved it- it was so nice to see people who were just so proud to be so DIFFERENT lol- the music was well...umm… i loved some of it- but most was just noise to me- =) but yeh some of it was reali good- i was just getting into it when the singer (??)..i guess he was singing kinda… got electrocuted- so yeh… they didnt finish the set lol it was funny- he suddenly stormed off with no explanation- and the entire hall was like... huh??

and my darlings =) im happy to report that although summer has brought all the pratish convertible driving 'oh look at me, i think im great, i dont have to wait for you to cross the road because I own a Ferrari' capitalists out of the woodwork my faith in the white man was restored today when i saw this woman help a blind man she did not know onto the bus =) lol things like that stop me from feeling so unique

and yeh =) i guess thats it- i love u all by the way and =D its only 2 months and 27 days untill im back =D

oh and my darling tiffany i hope u recover from your chiken-pox soon - Kisses sweetheart

and =) you all must listen too:
-you had time- ani Defranco
-the kooks- naive- if u havnt seen it download the video also- im fricking mesmorised- its just...beyond...
and
- Fascinating New Thing- Semisonic

kisses and love-
hanaxoxo

- id started to forget-

.:but my thoughts returned to you:.

-Mr. Brightside xo.

Its a secret no one tells
One day its heaven one day its hell.
It's no fairy tale Take it from me
Thats the way its supposed to be.
You will fly and you will crawl
God knows even angels fall.