Wednesday, October 11, 2006
i dont believe in love
i believe in long lasting friendship
and even that doesnt last forever
nothing does
nothing lasts forever
you wont be happy forever
but u wont be sad for long
nothing lasts forever
nothing
not even the 8th grade
do u ever get those emo nites- those fucking emo nights- procrastiantion nights are bad- but emo nites are the worst- i hate them- they always manage to sneek up on u aswell when u least expect them- when u need a french dictionary - then all of a fucking sudden your 8th grade homework diary falls off your overly stuffed bookself- and as u pick it up- you pray not to be sucked into one of those horibly reflective nights- but then u see a picture of charlie and jess and sit down, you know your defeated. u need to look at those pictures - those random notes- that realy bad half poetry half random reflection on the meaning of life and just remember how hapy you were- so hapy you knew that you were truly hapy-
i want to figure out what it all ment- how much it means to me- how much it matters- remember every minute of it- all my early-teen moments -when it just felt so good to be alive.
charlie lou jess liam dom naz jo aaron kenny amiel robert - all those faces and so many more go way back- and all i can do is try to deal with the fact that i wont see them tomoro- that ill go to school and no one will knoe what it was like to mess around before netball practice or think we were so grown up sneaking out to wonder the streets before we freeked out and speed walked home or laugh at mr monseur. or mr assbunnie - all those lost moments.
ive had enough. i want to go home. wherever that is. and i want this night to be over- if only so i can do my fucking hwk.
Posted by Sorelles @ 4:55 am